Old habits die hard.
I tried my very hardest to submit on time in 401... but just missed the cutoff. Ever have one of those days? All these programs open, computer's running slow, you think it's 2:50pm but server time says it's already 3:01pm?
I need to improve my workflow.
So, since it's still January, I'm adding yet another New Year's Resolution to my list: concentrate on progress. I am generally so tired after work that I haven't spared any mental strength for animating at night. I make my way through the week, and then Saturday comes, and I spend the whole day playing catch-up with my animation lectures and assignments, not to mention some small amount of social networking, and do the same on Sunday until 3pm (EST) when I am forced to let go and move on. It's an exhausting work flow for me.
The solution simply is to concentrate on the space of time available to me through the week, and push past fatigue and find again those sparkling wonders of possibility with a child's eyes.
As I pondered this today, I realized the concepts of time and space are so integral to my state of being. I always seem to have trouble finding time, so I need to focus - clear my head and move forward. I am an animator, and while I've improved my key poses in the last 3 terms at AnimationMentor, I now need to fully see the realm of possibility of character and motion - in between the keyframes. I have to refine my spacing and timing. Interesting that "breakdowns" have different meanings in my life, too. It has taken me a long time to realize that I live in a transitional world - things are constantly changing, sometimes very unstable, and I have to simply embrace that.
One thing that is helpful for me at this time is listening to classical Indian music. My fiance was born here in the United States, as I was, but his family is from India, and I've asked them to bring back some music for me. To the average onlooker (including my parents and some extended family), it might appear that I'm aiming for the stereotypical enlightenment of the hippie generation (minus the recreational drugs, unless you count chocolate). Really, all I want is to do what it takes to get myself to focus on what I have and where my aim should be. The enchanting, unique rhythms of classical Indian music reflect my desire to be surprising and entertaining in my ongoing attempts to bring characters to life.
That said, I am ready to start improving my workflow. My assignment was late today, yes. Now I have room to improve - to concentrate and focus throughout the week (not just the weekend) and to avoid any possibility of falling behind. The aim should always be upwards. I know I am dedicated, I just need to find the better path.